• How I grieve for the love I never felt with my first born baby

    Grieving the baby I could not love

    For 6 months I’ve sat with a feeling I couldn’t place. Most times I would fret my mind was sinking into depression, how could I be incredibly happy, yet have an awful wrench in my stomach. Easy…

  • Pregnancy after Post Natal Depression

    Pregnancy after Post Natal Depression

    Hesitant to say ‘better’ or ‘healed’, the post natal depression, or depression (at what point do we switch and drop the post natal?) I suffered is very much off the boil, not even on a lower heat…

  • Parenthood after depression

    Parenthood: Once bitten, twice not so fucking shy

    Parenthood changes your entire life. Heck, even wanting children changes your life. The journey into parenthood is different for each family, and so, the ride of parenthood is different. Of course, parents share similarities, the overwhelming responsibility,…

  • Positive Pregnancy Test Pregnant

    Baby Baking: Weeks 0-3

    A fucking knew it – the mentally uttered words. I had known for weeks I was carrying a stow away. When people tell you they ‘knew’ they were pregnant straight away, you always give I the ‘aye,…