Grieving the baby I could not love
For 6 months I’ve sat with a feeling I couldn’t place. Most times I would fret my mind was sinking into depression, how could I be incredibly happy, yet have an awful wrench in my stomach. Easy…
We don’t owe the birth of our baby to anyone other than us.
Being a female, there’s an ingrained sense of ‘owing’. We owe it to other people to cover up our bodies, not to make them uncomfortable. Whether that be a big busted lady daring to wear a…
Pregnancy after Post Natal Depression
Hesitant to say ‘better’ or ‘healed’, the post natal depression, or depression (at what point do we switch and drop the post natal?) I suffered is very much off the boil, not even on a lower heat…
Baby Baking: Weeks 0-3
A fucking knew it – the mentally uttered words. I had known for weeks I was carrying a stow away. When people tell you they ‘knew’ they were pregnant straight away, you always give I the ‘aye,…
Knock Knock! Who’s There? Depression! Oh FFS.
*tries to hide behind door from depression* A while ago, I wrote about how I believed I was gaining my freedom from depression, and I am. I have good spells and low dips, sometimes a dip so…
The Essentials For Breastfeeding? Honesty.
You’ll find no breast pumps in here. No ultra absorbent, saft, soothing breast pads. No raging nipple coolants. No quick tit revealing (ugly AF) maternity bras. No links. No products. No breastfeeding propaganda.
The one where depression tries to silence you
Sometimes I would like to say I’m sorry. To my partner. To my friends. But depression has a way of stifling, silencing my words, unable to be pronounced, never mind explained. Sometimes my actions speak louder than…
I want to believe
I want to believe I am the best thing since sliced bread. I want to believe every heart felt word or encouragement from my partner’s mouth. I want to believe I am the best mum for my…
Self Care – Awareness
Become Self Aware to improve Self Care ^^ I’m copywriting that stroke of literacy genius up there^^ I never thought I would see the day that I, HonestK (that’s my name, check my birth certificate if you…
Bitches be crazy
According to the internet it’s Mental Health Awareness Week, and since I’m, well, mental (post natal depression), I thought I would chip in. What do I have to say on the matter? I have a terrible confession.…
